i hate myself. i hate everyone else. life sucks, i have exams coming up thick and fast that are making me lose sleep. my dads not here to talk to and i dont know when he’ll be home. i feel like i’ve lost an arm but i’m confused as to why and my head and my heart  are at war with each other. half my fucking teachers at college are stuck abroad. i start my photography exam at half ten tomorrow and i have no fucking idea what i’m doing. i cant sleep at night. i cant get up in the morning. i have no motivation and i just want to burst out crying every five minutes. nothing gets easier. everything gets harder. 
i fucking hate it all.